I have looked back at my blog and realized that it is full of all the fun and exciting things that I have done lately. I am so blessed to really have the opportunity to do so many great things!
DISCLAIMER:
I don't want people to read my blog and ever think "everything seems to work out for her - why isn't my life like that."
Things aren't always gumdrops and lollipops (or hikes and trips) for ANYONE!
("The very opportunity for us to face adversity and affliction is part of the evidence of [Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ's] infinite love." - Pres. Eyring)
But, I have found that I have tended to post the things that DO go right so that when I look back on it myself, I can be reminded how very blessed I am (because I am very blessed).
My stake president in Mesa asked us to be more vulnerable this year - to share those things that might sometimes be a bit more personal then we typically like to share BUT that have helped us grow tremendously so that others can learn from them!
So...
The one thing I want in life more than anything else is my very own family.
("There can be no genuine happiness separate and apart from the home. The sweetest influences and associations of life are there." - Pres. Benson)
I want to come home from a late night and know someone cares that I made it back safe.
I want to share the dinner I make with someone else instead of eat alone.
I want to hear the words (and say) "I love you" everyday instead of just when I call home.
I want to have somebody to get ready for each day.
I want to go to wedding receptions and baby showers without feeling a twinge of pain at the realization that I don't belong in those categories yet.
I want someone I trust and love next to me to help me decide where to go after grad school.
I want to have someone to love and surprise and serve.
BUT...
God has a different plan for me right now,
and He knows what is best.
For now, I am just trying to make the very best of where I am at.
And reminding myself that,
"Some blessings come soon, some come late, and some don't come until heaven; but for those who embrace the gospel of Jesus Christ, they come." - as Elder Holland has said.
THEY COME!!
Until then, I'll be hiking!
Vulnerable enough?!? - but not desperate! - Promise :)
7 comments:
It was just right. :-)
Thanks for posting this Kourtney. I needed to know I wasn't the only one who felt like that.
Very well put. I understand:) Most people would think my life doing travel nursing, spending lots of time at the beach, having lots of time off, going on trips, eating out and playing is perfect. I am soooo grateful for these opportunities. At the end of the day however when you don't have anyone to share it with... sometimes one wants more. Thanks for sharing!
I love you Kourt!
love it!
You're fabulous Kourt! Keep dreaming and keep enjoying what you've got right now, too.
Kourtney! You are my favorite! I LOVE your blog!
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